The bloom of my youth has distilled

I’ve lost the will for the thrill

The blue pills prove I still feel

For the lust every man worth a damn will

A time for delight has grown finite

A hazy cycle has become most nights

Spent powerless to this hungry blight

Of a painful respite;

I hold boundless beauty to my skin

And I’m hounded by a beast within

With a burning desire to sin

Yet with no true fire within

With a dire desire to please

Pills bring a chill to my arteries

And I watch her simmer with hearty glee

For a night spent echoing hearty pleas

It’s a blessing through this subjection

To feel my ego grow with her inflection

And with a voice tainted with adulation  

She births me with renewed obsession

Yet my eyes will open to new sunlight

For a new day living a never-ending lie

For only through an unnatural high

Do I ever feel alive